Just Liddo Ol' Me

letting it all out

Here are just a few things about me

• I just somewhat got out of debt, paid off $14K!  I signed up for credit cards left and right when I was in my early 20’s and regret it everyday even more because to this day I have not one thing I purchased with those cards.
• I know everyone says their ex is crazy but honestly mine takes the cake! Every time I tried to leave he would threaten to take his life thus guilting me into staying..According to him I slept with every single guy I ever met, he would go through my phone, was super jealous, possessive, obsessive, wanted kids ASAP (I was 18) I hung around way too long and so on a trip to Rocky Point with his friends I packed my things and left, no note, no call, no nothing….Years later he would still try to send me emails telling me how great he’s doing and how much money he’s making…like really dude!? I have sooo forgotten this part of my life so moving on…
• I always feel like there are so many other girls out there I would like to look like or dress like, I feel like I don’t put in enough effort to look nice or dress like an adult.
• I was so undecided about kids about 5 years ago, I grew up raising three younger sisters so I know what it’s like to make bottles, change diapers, and put your social life on the back burner. Well in the last 2 years I have leaned more towards kids and now I can say I’m 100% sure I want kids. Everyone get’s that baby fever when babies are around but I feel like it’s always there now..If it happens it happens. I’m not really into the testing and trying this way or that way. If it’s meant to be it will just happen.
• I can honestly say I have only one really good girlfriend (BFF) whom I see once every 6 or 7 months. We have been friends since High School, and it doesn’t matter that we only see each other every few months because each time we do it’s like no time has passed at all. I love that we have that relationship.
• I worry too much, I’m the what if person. So that attributes to my over planning, over packing and stress trying to put parties/trips/events together. God help me if we ever get married.
• Speaking of marriage, I obsess over gorgeous dresses and how everything would look but really, I don’t care if that ever happens. Why do you need a piece of paper to say you are committed to this person. Just my opinion. I found the guy I want to spend my life with and if we never tie the knot that wouldn’t matter one bit to me. I love him, he loves me and we committed to one another.